implemented the provincial math test,
come such-and-such time-slot
to learn your score.
shamed, why add explicit punishment
to grueling sense of failure; didn't check.
in grade 12 he remarked (offhanded exasperation)
why's your math grade low? why wouldn't you
take final year? yours was one of the top scores.
now he mentions? graded on a bell curve was it?
how to undo years of loop thought:
I like it but can't do it, move on.
then stymied. still self-battery ("coward") pattern
over not checking.
as friend is apt to challenge me
when I recognize an obstacle:
so what are you going to do about it?
deft, gentle firm, redirect.
succeed at anything I love. crack the system