triple-length editorial: closure

I want closure before travel. i.e. plane, train, car trip = Is my will in order?

Never mind that
... probability of death is within miles of home not hundreds of miles
... it's psychological (& logical is in word, not spirit)
... all the closure is not unilaterally inside my power; it takes others and time
... there's no way to tidy all with asynchronicity, continuous starts

If I were a flight attendant, would I fast track resolving my issues, or would I pass on the need to?

What would I not want left unsaid? Daily, every word could be last
will and testament, but can't live inside "waiting for death to drop" anymore.
I am my own Second Coming, new creation in my hands.