mom's ready deflections said,
I didn't need new bikes
because I was a girl.
boys grow, need more.
I grew, cycled as much.
why didn't she admit we didn't have the money
instead of blaming birthright gender,
her pride ahead of my best interests?
why didn't I insist on earning?
what all does reflection change?
I wasn't swift to infer.
what does nearly 30-year-old seeds
of carried jealousy, resentment do?
to examine is to recontextualize, let duds go.